Once you know who you are,
you cease to view
existence as something
that is happening to you.
Rather, you see that existence is
what is happening as You.
Are you feeling stressed?
Remember who you Are!
The wave has forgotten
that it is the
Lose your "self"
and you will find
Have you ever investigated into your deepest nature by sitting with the question, "Who am I?"
If you've spent any time in genuine self-inquiry, you know that once all the superficial, surface answers like your name, your race, ethnicity, gender, job, personality traits and the like come up and you've dismissed them, you can't answer the question of who you really are.
Who you're not, on the other hand, you can talk about all day.
If you're getting concrete answers when you ask the question "Who am I?" then what you're actually answering is who you're not.
Only when you're left speechless, with a faintly familiar sense of something you couldn't even begin to articulate -- are you starting to touch on who you are. It's so subtle, so immaterial, so empty -- that if you haven't spent much time in that space, you might just overlook it when you first set out in "search" of it.
But the more you give yourself time to connect in with that depth of being underlying the persona you've always taken to be you, the more you start to recognize this wordless, nameless presence as your inherent nature.
Learn to recognize the false "self"
from the True Self.
False self comes
Self is what remains -
the substance from which
all comes and to which
This Self is eternal.
Poems: from Notes to Self: Meditations on Being
One day, it suddenly strikes you. You admit to yourself that you don't know what's true. What's ultimately true. What's really true about yourself, about life, about existence.
A startling realization, and one that instantly sets you on a search to uncover Truth. You simply must know.
And if you truly want to know, you will. But it can be a somewhat rude awakening if you have a specific image of what you imagine Truth will look like. Which, for most people, is probably something akin to the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.
Often you think you want to realize Truth, when what you really want is to realize is your happy, spiritual, lights-and-fireworks version of Truth -- a "Truth" that complies completely with your conception of what it should be, what it will mean for your life and what you will be able to get out of it.
In actuality, as you embark upon Truth you find out that as far as you're concerned, Truth is a sacrifice -- because it doesn't have anything to do with you and your images, wishes and ideals.
By it's very nature, Truth isn't about you. It's about Truth. So, one of the first "true" lessons you learn about Truth is that you have to be true to It -- not the other way around.
If you want Truth to fit your image, or fit into your definition of what it should be, or if you demand that it feel a certain way -- you're not being true to Truth -- you're being true to you, to ego.
If you really want to realize Truth, you will. It's your nature, your essence -- and thus, ultimately inevitable. But the prerequisite is a willingness to sacrifice ego at Truth's alter for that to happen.
And if you want to live as Truth, more than just to have a fleeting experience of Truth, you have to be willing to keep making that sacrifice daily, moment-to-moment.
To live the Truth
is to embrace
alongside the positive.
It is to see
that, in fact,
positive and negative
and everything in between
Poem: from Notes to Self: Meditations on Being
Just a gal experimenting with what it means to live outside of mind.
Read more about Notes to Self, the "manual" on living beyond mind.