"To be or not to be: that is the question."
Or is it? By dictionary definition, to "be" simply means to exist or to live. Something that anyone reading this, is certainly doing.
When we have the sense that we're unable to "be", what is usually meant is that there is a recognition of inability to be in the moment, to "be here now." It's a sense of being cut off from the purity or core of existence.
In reality, we're never not being. It only can appear that way because we allow our attention to go to our thoughts, versus to the lived experience of any given moment.
Emphasis on thought creates what is, in effect, a "screen" that keeps out the present moment as our attention chases a past and future that isn't currently happening.
Is there anything to "do" about this? That depends on how you look at it. It's not really a doing. It's more like an undoing, a removing of the attention from thoughts constantly, persistently. Repeatedly. Until the prevailing habit is to be resting in the moment rather than chasing thoughts.
However, if we set out not to think, trying our best to be in the moment, this is not being, but rather the effort of doing. To want to be in the moment is to miss that the moment already is.
It's this very chasing of anything -- including the moment -- that makes this moment appear lacking or insufficient. It's, after all, just another thought that takes us away from here, wanting to be "over there," "in the moment." But it's never "there." It's always here.
"Thoughts are just moving through consciousness. They have no power. Nothing has reality until you reach it, grab it and somehow impregnate it with the power of belief." ~Adyashanti
"Meditation is when the mind is free and not holding thoughts. Let the thoughts come and go, but do not run after them." ~Papaji
It's easy to label thought as the great culprit that steals away the moment. But if we look closely, it's not actually thought that does this, but rather the attention, importance and belief that we lavish on our thoughts.
Thoughts come and go in the mind, just as waves come and go in the ocean. Both very normal, natural occurrences. The ocean, however, doesn't show interest or involvement in any particular wave -- whereas mind does hone in on specific thoughts, mulling them over and clamping down on them.
The word "thought" is commonly understood even by small children. But thoughts -- which qualify as forms -- are "invisible," which makes them often difficult to isolate and recognize as such. Especially while they are occurring, when it's easy to get swept up into the content of what's being thought and overlook the fact that it's only a passing thought, as insignificant as a passing wave in the ocean.
Some thoughts (or types of thought patterns) are so habituated that it takes a real sincerity, self-discipline and diligence to spot and recognize them for what they are. Each time we do this, though, we free the thought to pass on, simultaneously freeing ourselves to be alive to the present moment.
When we get involved in a thought, it passes much more slowly. That's because our very attention and interest in it serve as an invitation for it to stick around.
The more attention we give it, the more "food for thought." By feeding our thoughts, we are, in essence, cutting ourselves off from the aliveness and fullness of the moment, choosing instead to live at the periphery.
The answer is not to stop thinking. That would not only be impossible, but also completely unnecessary.
To "pull the plug" on thought doesn't mean to keep thought from happening. It only means to be aware when you are thinking and remove your focus, attention and investment in the content of the thought, simply allowing it to pass on.
This is to pull the plug on thought and free yourself to be.
It is your thoughts that create
and your hells.
Free yourself by no longer
giving priority to your
thoughts and thought patterns.
Unravel these thought patterns by
really seeing them.
Thoughts of desire.
Thoughts of complaint.
Thoughts that this moment may
be wrong in some way.
Thoughts of needing anything other
than this moment to be happy.
Poem from Notes to Self: Meditations on Being
It's so talked about in meditation and New Age circles, among others, that it's practically common knowledge these days: It's only our thoughts that cause us to feel unhappy and to suffer.
Imagine a scenario with me. You're feeling very grounded and present after a particularly great yoga class. As you step out the door to walk to your car, you recognize the car of a friend who was also in your class slowly driving towards you, and she rolls down her window. Instead of the greeting you expected, she says, "Stop hitting on my boyfriend," in a cold tone and drives off.
Strange, you think. Her boyfriend engaged me in conversation for a minute before class started. All I did was respond to his questions.
Normally you would have found this fly-by accusation that you were flirting with your friend's boyfriend upsetting, but you're feeling very centered and you manage to shrug off the whole scene. She must be having an off day, you decide.
You're even surprised at how well you took the whole thing, because you know you'd normally be a lot more shaken.
An hour later, you're less present and you start to replay the incident in your mind. You're feeling baffled and confused about what happened.
The more you think about it, the more baffled and confused you become. The more baffled and confused you become, the more you start to feel hurt by your friend's harsh words and actions. Thoughts about the scene start stampeding through your mind.
How dare she accuse me of hitting on her boyfriend when all I did was exchange a few sentences with him? How dare she accuse me of doing the "flirting," when he was the conversation starter in the first place? How dare she blurt out her accusation without allowing me any time to respond?
Soon, you've worked yourself into an angry frenzy about the whole thing. Before you know it, you're livid.
How were you able to stay so cool, calm and collected initially, only to end up furious an hour later?
It's because initially, your mind wasn't active, wasn't thinking, so you didn't perceive what happened as a problem. But then at a later point your mind kicked in and suddenly... Grrr... how dare she accuse me of that?!...
And before you know it, you're upset and unhappy because of an incident that, initially, you were willing to shrug off as your friend having a bad day. That's just a minor example of how our thoughts are the actual cause of our unhappiness and discontent.
Our thoughts literally sabotage our peace of mind in two ways:
1) By feeding us "shoulds" about what's happening, has happened or will happen or
2) By feeding us "should nots" about what's happening, has happened or will happen.
For example, "My partner, the weather, my health, my bank account, should be like so. But they're not, so woe is me." Or, "My boss, car, job, child shouldn't be like so. But they are. Woe is me."
It's easy to see how this works on an intellectual, conceptual level. The question is, if we see it, why do we keep repeatedly going to our thoughts and choosing to suffer?
If you see that your thoughts are causing you to suffer and yet you continue to live in your thought world, ask yourself why you choose to keep doing this. But rather than thinking about it, feel what's true for you. Why do you continue to choose struggle and suffering over freedom and contentment?
For some, it is fear of the unknown. Mind and the thought world are, at least, known, whereas living without thoughts is a leap into the unknown. Scary.
For others, it's a fear of letting the story that defines them and their life go, because that means they have to let go of the person they've always identified with. Scary.
Whether your answer is one of these or something else entirely, the next question to ask yourself is: Do I value my illusory sense of safety, my false sense of self or my own unique reason for staying in mind so much that it's worth staying miserable for?
Or, would I like to fly free, for a change?
We can all imagine how the scenario with your friend might play out if you choose to pick up the phone and call your friend in your moment of greatest rage. (In a nutshell, not well for either one of you.)
How might things play out if you choose to continue disregarding your negative thoughts about what happened until you feel capable of calling your friend from a place of presence to gently express your hurt and confusion over what happened?
After you have expressed your truth in the latter scenario, your friend is much more likely to respond apologetically than if you come at her from your angry mind place.
But even if your friend continues to accuse you, even if she hurls more insults at you, you can still take whatever action is necessary -- such as ending the friendship if that feels like a healthy boundary -- while staying out of your mind and thoughts.
Yes, it might be an uncomfortable and awkward experience. But you don't have to get sucked into your thoughts about that, either. Sure, you don't get the satisfaction of "hating" your friend for treating you the way she did. But how satisfying is it, really, to hate someone, anyway? How does hate make you feel?
When you're not replaying thoughts and indulging in them, you'll find that you can be dealing with even negative emotions while staying clear headed and present.
There's far less drama and vindication in this than in going with your mind. But there's also more peace and contentment. Would you rather be "right" and angry or surrendered and free?
For No Particular Reason
Whoever or whatever the moment
brings, free yourself of unnecessary
misery by not judging it...
be it an unpleasant situation,
person, feeling, thought or
You can decide to be content for no
and why not give yourself
Poem from Notes to Self: Meditations on Being
Just a gal experimenting with what it means to live outside of mind.
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